8:45 PM 
Bitin. It's always like that (well, ok, so not always, but most of the time. Usually. Most likely. Blah.) When we eat our favorite dish, when we watch a super wonderful movie, recess time, when we gossip during class hours, or when we finally find someone we actually like, only to find out that it's just not going to be YOU. It's like, we enjoy it so much, the feeling, the moment, then when it's gone, everything goes too. It becomes a quiet desperation, then it burns us down, until we finally accept that it's over, or that it's just not going to happen. Dissatisfaction. It's really crazy.
Jealousy. Oh that. We all know that, and as much as we hate it, it comes, it happens, and it completely takes over us. It tears us apart, even with the knowledge of the fact that it's just an emotion that we can completely ignore. Fervid as a flame, does it have name? Loathing.
Irritation. Over something rather stupid? Really shallow. But can you avoid it? No.
I don't know wtf came over me, why I typed in those stuff. Haha, let's just say I think too much. I think I'm going through a lot lately. No, I am going through a lot lately. It's my problem, my friends' problems, and all that crap that gets in between.
I need a break. I need... I need a clue, on what to do.
I guess we all get confused sometimes when we over-think.
Have I been a good friend?
Have I been honest to my self? To my feelings?
Have I studied well enough?
Did I print the project due tomorrow?
Have I skipped eating just because I lost my appetite?
It's so... Crazy.
There's this war inside my head.
:: Oh, I am so addicted to progressive rock now.
I've been listening to these stuff some time ago, but the addiction only struck now.
Hahaha {random?}
:: I LOVE ACHIEVEMENTS. After sweating all that sweat, and pouring out all that blood, it just feels good to know that you did it. I think I got better in my stupid guitar-ing :)) I can finally play Tattooed On My Mind (oh that is such a big deal for me) LOL. And then wasting all that ink and liquid eraser just to fix some school stuff. Haha!
:: :)
